layers

Layers are great for the winter.

Impending snowfall is just around the corner here in Colorado, despite the trickery of the last couple days of record breaking heat for this time of year. I know it's coming.

When layers aren't cool though? When they're, metaphorically, wrapped around your being and burying your Truth. Our soul lies deep within, connected to our skin and bones from the inside. This human experience we're all having creates layers around us, for better or worse. We create this wildly self-sabotaging defense mechanisms. Or become tough and cold, thick skinned, and unable to truly feel joy anymore. Or maybe your the person who has found that staying quiet and timid is better than speaking up and speaking Truth. You don't want to stir the pot. Maybe your riddled with fear and anxiety about something bad happening when things are going well, and are unable to realize the goodness around you. There are so, so many ways that life can layer us up.

Beyond those layers, deep inside, we can find ourselves. Our most authentic, intuitive, instinctual selves. The part of us that moves from a place beyond the mind. A cosmic consciousness. A more connected and sure person. But to get back to this sense of self, it takes work. Peeling back and analyzing layer after layer. What still might suite us to keep? What is definitely no longer serving us? What is preventing us from stepping into our personal power? We can't be afraid of our strengths OR our weaknesses. We must learn each of them, well, and move from a place and into a space that allows our strengths to lead. Changing who you truly are to fit the mold of a job, or role, or responsibility - trying to improve weaknesses rather than tending to and feeding strengths - leaves us feeling even more weak. Even more incompetent. I believe it's important to cater to our strengths, and live and work in a place that allows us to highlight these aspects of ourselves. Build up a foundation from what you know. Foundation is everything.

I'll say it again, foundation is everything. When we break down old, weak, crumbling structures, we create space to begin the rebuild of our lives. This may seem like a scary and daunting task. That's because it most definitely, without a doubt, is the scary shit of all time. Once we fall into routine, complacency, contentment - not always a bad thing if you're genuinely happy and fulfilled here - we isolate the ideas of change and growth. And who wants to blow up their life and start over again? It took a lot of trial and tribulation to just get here, right? Screw it.

Personally, I think every piece of dynamite you come across - urging you to explode - is a blessing. Something to be perceived as a universal sign to take control. If and when you feel this urge, there is nothing left to lose but yourself! And when your relationship with yourself is one of the most essential things we have in this human experience ... well I don't really see what other choice there is. But that's just me.

I've always been one for the blowing up of one's life to make way for a rebirth. I am a woman who NEEDS the space and time for a constant life/death/life cycle. Without it I'd be nothing. I have found myself with said dynamite and matches in my hand several times in my life. And I'm not that old, but I know the importance of starting over if something doesn't feel right. I've also learned that destruction is a form of beauty, and you can allow yourself to be vulnerable to that kind of beauty, that kind of rebirth, you will start to create a life that truly means something to you. That lights you up from the inside out.

Leaving this here for you all to soak up.

Keep peeling back the layers - that True self is in there. They are waiting for you.

-S.

PS - I've got some spare dynamite if anyone needs it, holla.